Mommy 是我的favourite person

我知道我是你的favourite person了。

我知道你懂我是你的mommy了。

很爱很爱你！

最近一直重看你出生到现在的照片，你长得好快好快，mama好舍不得你那么快长大。

今天感触

1.当妈后，可以咕噜把一瓶500ml的水喝完。

2.睡衣不能穿了。

3. ❤️❤️❤️宝宝latch好多次mama的nene。

宝宝的衣服

当妈妈得到爸爸的签证可以买衣服给你时，你可知道我是多么的开心😊。

Alamak, 全部都是pink color。

你爸说：‘出来是男的，以后变gay，mama的事’。那有爸爸这么说话的😠。更气我的是你爸说：‘我不是第一次做爸爸，所以我不会向你那么excited’。

Mama虽然经济上真的很紧，真的对不起你。可是mama有买一两件给你。更欣慰的是，mama的朋友-Venice和Huina啊姨等等有送mama宝宝的用品哦。我❤️你，baby😘😘😘

mama的坏天气

昨晚情绪有些激动。宝宝感受到，动了一阵。还好，我过后就睡着了。对不起宝宝，mama爱你。

好累好累，今天又出去一整天。

Happy mother's day

Thank you papa for the little yellow rosie (your favourite colour). We can feel the every little effort you make to keep us love, safe and stronger. We 💕 u. 

Mama happy, Baby happy. Everyone happy. 

How do you feel when he said......

How do you feel when your husband-to-be said...
1. He wasn't ready when you told him you got pregnant?
2. You figure out baby stuff yourself.
3. I do not want to get marry cuz I am not ready.
4. Let's get married for the sake of child, but I don't love you.
5. You need to control your emotion cuz you are stressing the baby. 
6. You need to grow up! How could you be a mom?
7. Is your own problem that come to me.
8. I don't see you as a wife. (So he introduce her to his friends as 'friend' or 'partner')


This husband-to-be has no idea how much damage he had done to her.

Her emotion swing like a yoyo.

How should she react?

28 Aug

I never thought I could be so dumb. The negativity comes and confidency goes.

Who am I? I lost myself again.
Did I make the right move?

Maybe cute butt was right? Not that you can bare, this is not for you perhaps.

17th May 2017

Good news today.

Weight drop to 55.7kg. Cassy called me early in the morning to inform me a good new. Besides. cute butt is very kind to tag me along to KL next week. 

Exercise twice a day, one in the morning and one in evening are really exhausting. I left Body combat slightly earlier than usual because my muscle could not take it anymore. I could feel the lactic acid is all around my muscle.

Diary 16th May 2017

I received two calls for the interview; one from a Wellness Company & one from Rxx Bank. Hmm, is that what I want?

There were a few interview calls and interview appointments lately. Well, at least my market value is still there. I should be confident in myself and never doubt my own ability. 

I think interview today went quite smooth. The last chat was great. I was able to express myself better in showing my initiative and interest. Yes, I would like to challenge myself to discover the potential and never stop learning. 100k before 30 years old, but stick with the current title won't help me reach the goal. Yes, reading news and market to keep me updated, why not? Okay, to reach the goal you have to work harder than others and train your thick face.

Richard shared the idea of youtube, weight loss for confinement and wedding. He also mentioned we could do the soursop leaves tea as soon as possible. I can't wait to start the engine.

15th May 2017

Nothing special today at work except I ate 3 pieces of carrot cake! Oh yea, I cooked dinner this evening! Surprise!!!

 

Brother’s nose bleeds again and they are on the way to PAH. Seriously, I don’t know how to communicate with my dad. I don’t think he understood what I said just now.

I am happy to receive another bank asking me to send the latest resume. I am hungry for that position.

14th May 2017

As usual, waking up very early in the morning before the day turned bright. I continued to roll in the bed till 8 am. Looking at the slide and continue to practise the flow to prevent things in Life Hope Center happens again. I was struggled to talk about my presentation. Why? I just did not understand why? Why can’t I speak fluently and delivered the message clearly? Okay fine, after trying a few round, it was already 11ish. I should cook something fast to eat and get ready.

We reached Hillside Church at 1 pm and waited for Cowan to show us the way to the kitchen. I am glad to have the girls and Cowan to help me for the preparation. Health talk started at 2 pm. Surprisingly, I am okay with the flow! Thank god! Just that the food demonstration part wasn’t as good compared to the PPP event. The audience were happy with the talk. So, overall was good and I enjoyed it. 

The Consistency of Workout

I wish I am as skinny as the 'me' in the mirror! 
But you know what? 
Health should not be judged by your body size but how you take care of it! 

Guess what's my achievement today? I was amazed because I really hate to do push up.

10 push up!

How to achieve that? The consistency of workout. 

First of all, educate yourself the importance of exercise to health. 

Second, pick up the exercise you enjoy doing it.

Third, you need to be discipline.

It would be great if you have support from people around.

Last, just do it! 

释放

我很努力的忘掉不开心的事，很努力的让自己过得很开心。

 

我好久没在部落格写心情了，因为不想传送不好的能量。那我也太压抑自己了。发泄吧！ 好想哭却哭不出来。这证明我已经慢慢的痊愈了吧。那干嘛我心情还是那么糟糕？告诉自己，会过去的，别急、慢慢来。

Sweat It Out @ Penang Botanical Garden

How's sweating feel like after sport? It was feeling AWESOME! 

I've not been to outdoor to refresh lately since the haze came few weeks ago. After days of shower, the rain did wash away some of the haze. So, I quickly took this chance to getaway myself in nature for a short workout and jogging for 1.5 hours.

I was told by a client this evening that I seem to have lost some weight. I can feel my body has firmed up a bit but I am still confused, because my pants are still tight? 

Since June I started to go Gym, I found my stamina started to pick up again. I did not feel breathless or tired when I walked up the mini hills for 3 times in Botanical Garden! Besides, I able to run non-stop for one round and sweat like hell. I love it - love the sweating!   

I was feeling good and happy :)

Tips : Sweating doesn't mean you exercise. 

How do you know you have optimised your exercise's performance by these 3 ways.  

1. Heart Rate - Try to achieve your Target Heart Rate 

Maximum Heart Rate = 220 - Age

Target Heart Rate     = between 65% to 85% of Maximum Heart rate

      Example:      Maximum Heart Rate = 220 - Age 25 = 195

                              Target Heart Rate = 195 x 65% = 126.75

                                                          = 195 x 85% =165.76 

So, my Target Heart Rate is between 127 pulses to 166 pulses per minute. 

2. RPE (Rate of Perceived Exertion) - How do you feel about the exercise? Is it hard or easy? 

There is a scale of 1 to 10 to rate your perceived exertion. I rate myself 7 ( a bit uncomfortable and short of breathe) after the non-stop jogging. 

3. Singing/Talking Test

When you are breathless, can you sing or talk? Probably just a short sentence. That's how my personal trainer 'tricked' me - talked to me while I did the warm up on a treadmill. 

Oh no!!! Putting on weight!

I've been putting on weight lately without realising. It was just a month I started to work and my weight is weighting up! I can see the stubborn fat started to grow around my waist and also my tights! Besides my skins became loose and 'swingable'. I can't wear hot pants and tight top anymore :(

 Oh gosh what have I done to myself? Having bad diet and physically inactive at all!!! I ate a lot of rice lately, I hate rice!!!!! Is all your fault! Ops sometime can't blame rice at all because one thing that I finally agree is that australian they see asian food is oily and try to avoid it. It is true! I see many housewives or even when you eat out, the food is so oily! This Is something that I am not very used to eat anymore. I feel bad that sometimes I will prepare a bowl of water to soak/rinse the veg to remove the oil! Seriously I did that and I am going to continue.

 Okay start complaining, I don't like Malaysian lifestyle, eat and sit on the car; where can I jalan-jalan nearby my house? Plus my freedom is kinda restricted because I don't have a car, inconvenient to go out, can't even shopping to move a bit, such a boring and torturing life! 

Okay finish complain. 

Maybe I should come out with a plan~

What I used to be when I was oversea

Morning: 

1.oats/cereal, banana and milk

2. 1 slice of toast with peanut butter and coffee with milk

3. 3 dim sim

4. 1 small bowl of yogurt with fruits and some biscuit crumb 

Lunch: 

1. 1/2 little bowl of rice with any dish ( steam fish, baked beans, beef and veg)

2. 2 pieces of toast/ 1 roll/ 1 wrap with peanut butter/can's tuna/ ham&cheese

3. Salad mixed with feta cheese and meat

Dinner:

1. 1:2 bowl of rice with any dish

2. Soup, half packed of noodle, veg, mushroom, veg

3. Takeaway food

Middle of day when hungry:

Nimble biscuit or fruits

Most importantly, my working needs a lot of physical work and moving around.

Currently :

As mentioned above, carbo feast! Oily food! No fresh eat!

A plan to implement~

Morning:

Cereal, milk, banana, yogurt, toast, oats,

Nuts and raisin

Lunch:

1. 1/2 small bowl of rice with veg, protein

2. Salad and meat

3. Toast/wrap/rolls with egg, meat & veg

Dinner:

1. 1/2 small bowl of rice, veg, protein less.

2. Veg soup 

Snack a bit between meals when hungry.

Biscuit, milo or hot choc drinks 

The Complicated Life

現實與夢想
如果要達到自己的夢想，必須先承擔現實的殘酷，那我願意
但是隨之而來的是我老朋友壓力哥。
看看自己的壓力，看看別人的，其實不算什麼，喜歡這段，山不轉路轉，路不轉人轉，人不轉心轉。外境不轉時，心念一轉，便豁然開朗。
當自己跌得滿是傷的時候，哭過就沒事，而且要感謝它讓你上了一課
當別人對你口氣不好的時候，別氣和難過
試著反省自己，改變自己的態度，然後再給對方一個燦爛的笑容。
當人事物不斷打擊你的心，那試著把自己的心練得堅固點
國中的時候老我們讀過 the road not taken
我想選較少人走過的路，克服現實，變得更壯，我會加油的

Written by a friend on facebook @ https://www.facebook.com/soonjin.teh?fref=nf

It is so hard for me to choose right now. I am struggling for work yet I can't leave my be-loved people and I hate to being alone again. Should I give up finding job in my related field? Is it what I am looking for? At the moment, I just want to stay with the people I loved.

Preliminary Photo Shooting

Short-listed Candidates Preliminary Photo Shooting at First Avenue for I Found FAME 2014  Something that's not so me...

This is my first time photo shooting since long time ago and it was fun. I did enjoy. The event was held on 26th&27th April. The photo is a bit blurred. Blame my very light make up too. Look super ugly on this photo. 

There were a lot of nice pictures of pretty women and handsome men. Have a look on 1st Avenue Penang's facebook or just check on this link 

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.859042527444763.1073741917.165384046810618&type=1

I wasn't intent to participate on this kind of event. I submitted the form just for fun. So lucky that I was selected in the 70 list out of 500+ candidates. Anyway don't think I will be selected in the top 12 for final, so many talented people out there. Anyway photo shooting was fun and cool! I love photo shooting- an expression of art!

Thanks friends for coming with me and coincidently met Shirlyn just finished her photo shooting session. A free starbuck buy one free one voucher was given to every candidates.  

I am sucked in make up as I don't do make up frequently. The first photo's make up by myself in the morning. The second photo's make up was touched up a bit by the professional team. Love my eyebrows, thanks for helping me. 

The last one still looked good with no make up, hahaha...

The finalist was out few days ago and I wasn't in the list as expected. Congratulations to the winner!

Attitude

Finally I have found out the one who rang me from Adventist Hospital and SADLY to say I miss the golden opportunity. She is the manager of Health and Wellness Department and looking for a Community Dietitian due to her staff is leaving to US. However I just noticed the email from the stupid Junk Mail and it was too late already. She had already found someone for this position. I am so sad sob sob sob.... Such a good opportunity just slipped away like that. Stupid me:(  I know my attitude and behavior is such a big problem. I should treat things seriously in real!!! Bye Bye my gold~~~

Is there any chances of working as Dietitian again? Or nah just stick back to Food Industry? My future is so blurred. I shall not think that far. I should just take whatever that come first. Oh My God...

She needs love and a BIG HUG

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First day Orientation

First day orientation~
Met few friends, they are so nice!
Felicia and Mayee are from Singapore, nice girls...
Met some old friends too...
I found that Hongkie they are so funny, like Jennifer, Jessie and their friends.
The ways they speak always make people laugh and happy!

Only grab 3 pieces of pizza today! haiz, lousy me!

This week i have so many working day off, sob sob....
Money Money MONEY!!!!!