15th May 2017

Nothing special today at work except I ate 3 pieces of carrot cake! Oh yea, I cooked dinner this evening! Surprise!!!

 

Brother’s nose bleeds again and they are on the way to PAH. Seriously, I don’t know how to communicate with my dad. I don’t think he understood what I said just now.

I am happy to receive another bank asking me to send the latest resume. I am hungry for that position.

14th May 2017

As usual, waking up very early in the morning before the day turned bright. I continued to roll in the bed till 8 am. Looking at the slide and continue to practise the flow to prevent things in Life Hope Center happens again. I was struggled to talk about my presentation. Why? I just did not understand why? Why can’t I speak fluently and delivered the message clearly? Okay fine, after trying a few round, it was already 11ish. I should cook something fast to eat and get ready.

We reached Hillside Church at 1 pm and waited for Cowan to show us the way to the kitchen. I am glad to have the girls and Cowan to help me for the preparation. Health talk started at 2 pm. Surprisingly, I am okay with the flow! Thank god! Just that the food demonstration part wasn’t as good compared to the PPP event. The audience were happy with the talk. So, overall was good and I enjoyed it. 

The Consistency of Workout

I wish I am as skinny as the 'me' in the mirror! 
But you know what? 
Health should not be judged by your body size but how you take care of it! 

Guess what's my achievement today? I was amazed because I really hate to do push up.

10 push up!

How to achieve that? The consistency of workout. 

First of all, educate yourself the importance of exercise to health. 

Second, pick up the exercise you enjoy doing it.

Third, you need to be discipline.

It would be great if you have support from people around.

Last, just do it! 

释放

我很努力的忘掉不开心的事，很努力的让自己过得很开心。

 

我好久没在部落格写心情了，因为不想传送不好的能量。那我也太压抑自己了。发泄吧！ 好想哭却哭不出来。这证明我已经慢慢的痊愈了吧。那干嘛我心情还是那么糟糕？告诉自己，会过去的，别急、慢慢来。

Sweat It Out @ Penang Botanical Garden

How's sweating feel like after sport? It was feeling AWESOME! 

I've not been to outdoor to refresh lately since the haze came few weeks ago. After days of shower, the rain did wash away some of the haze. So, I quickly took this chance to getaway myself in nature for a short workout and jogging for 1.5 hours.

I was told by a client this evening that I seem to have lost some weight. I can feel my body has firmed up a bit but I am still confused, because my pants are still tight? 

Since June I started to go Gym, I found my stamina started to pick up again. I did not feel breathless or tired when I walked up the mini hills for 3 times in Botanical Garden! Besides, I able to run non-stop for one round and sweat like hell. I love it - love the sweating!   

I was feeling good and happy :)

Tips : Sweating doesn't mean you exercise. 

How do you know you have optimised your exercise's performance by these 3 ways.  

1. Heart Rate - Try to achieve your Target Heart Rate 

Maximum Heart Rate = 220 - Age

Target Heart Rate     = between 65% to 85% of Maximum Heart rate

      Example:      Maximum Heart Rate = 220 - Age 25 = 195

                              Target Heart Rate = 195 x 65% = 126.75

                                                          = 195 x 85% =165.76 

So, my Target Heart Rate is between 127 pulses to 166 pulses per minute. 

2. RPE (Rate of Perceived Exertion) - How do you feel about the exercise? Is it hard or easy? 

There is a scale of 1 to 10 to rate your perceived exertion. I rate myself 7 ( a bit uncomfortable and short of breathe) after the non-stop jogging. 

3. Singing/Talking Test

When you are breathless, can you sing or talk? Probably just a short sentence. That's how my personal trainer 'tricked' me - talked to me while I did the warm up on a treadmill. 

Oh no!!! Putting on weight!

I've been putting on weight lately without realising. It was just a month I started to work and my weight is weighting up! I can see the stubborn fat started to grow around my waist and also my tights! Besides my skins became loose and 'swingable'. I can't wear hot pants and tight top anymore :(

 Oh gosh what have I done to myself? Having bad diet and physically inactive at all!!! I ate a lot of rice lately, I hate rice!!!!! Is all your fault! Ops sometime can't blame rice at all because one thing that I finally agree is that australian they see asian food is oily and try to avoid it. It is true! I see many housewives or even when you eat out, the food is so oily! This Is something that I am not very used to eat anymore. I feel bad that sometimes I will prepare a bowl of water to soak/rinse the veg to remove the oil! Seriously I did that and I am going to continue.

 Okay start complaining, I don't like Malaysian lifestyle, eat and sit on the car; where can I jalan-jalan nearby my house? Plus my freedom is kinda restricted because I don't have a car, inconvenient to go out, can't even shopping to move a bit, such a boring and torturing life! 

Okay finish complain. 

Maybe I should come out with a plan~

What I used to be when I was oversea

Morning: 

1.oats/cereal, banana and milk

2. 1 slice of toast with peanut butter and coffee with milk

3. 3 dim sim

4. 1 small bowl of yogurt with fruits and some biscuit crumb 

Lunch: 

1. 1/2 little bowl of rice with any dish ( steam fish, baked beans, beef and veg)

2. 2 pieces of toast/ 1 roll/ 1 wrap with peanut butter/can's tuna/ ham&cheese

3. Salad mixed with feta cheese and meat

Dinner:

1. 1:2 bowl of rice with any dish

2. Soup, half packed of noodle, veg, mushroom, veg

3. Takeaway food

Middle of day when hungry:

Nimble biscuit or fruits

Most importantly, my working needs a lot of physical work and moving around.

Currently :

As mentioned above, carbo feast! Oily food! No fresh eat!

A plan to implement~

Morning:

Cereal, milk, banana, yogurt, toast, oats,

Nuts and raisin

Lunch:

1. 1/2 small bowl of rice with veg, protein

2. Salad and meat

3. Toast/wrap/rolls with egg, meat & veg

Dinner:

1. 1/2 small bowl of rice, veg, protein less.

2. Veg soup 

Snack a bit between meals when hungry.

Biscuit, milo or hot choc drinks 

The Complicated Life

現實與夢想
如果要達到自己的夢想，必須先承擔現實的殘酷，那我願意
但是隨之而來的是我老朋友壓力哥。
看看自己的壓力，看看別人的，其實不算什麼，喜歡這段，山不轉路轉，路不轉人轉，人不轉心轉。外境不轉時，心念一轉，便豁然開朗。
當自己跌得滿是傷的時候，哭過就沒事，而且要感謝它讓你上了一課
當別人對你口氣不好的時候，別氣和難過
試著反省自己，改變自己的態度，然後再給對方一個燦爛的笑容。
當人事物不斷打擊你的心，那試著把自己的心練得堅固點
國中的時候老我們讀過 the road not taken
我想選較少人走過的路，克服現實，變得更壯，我會加油的

Written by a friend on facebook @ https://www.facebook.com/soonjin.teh?fref=nf

It is so hard for me to choose right now. I am struggling for work yet I can't leave my be-loved people and I hate to being alone again. Should I give up finding job in my related field? Is it what I am looking for? At the moment, I just want to stay with the people I loved.